Work ,moving out and SO much feelings

When lyrics in the past were stupid and you thought how meaningless , like Katy Perrys lyrics , like a plastic bag drifting through the wind  pfft...? Which makes so much sense to me now and the waves of emotions I have been going through lately , I think I know what it feels like to be that plastic bag , paper thin ,somewhat meaningless , floating , nothing can really hurt you anymore , your'e moving in a direction ,but you don't know how things will end up ,That plastic bag is something not many notice its there but no-one really pays attention,plastic being one of the items that you cant  really recycle , it will always be in the environment just in another form of something.

This year has been one of the most challenging years of my life so far , I've had to make decisions that went against everyone else' happiness , but was the best for my own happiness  .. The only thing about making decision to make yourself happy is you end up hurting people along the way , you end up in fights with parents (Ugly ones) ,Your relationship with your better half will put you to the test 99% of the time , Your idea of happiness will confuse you ,but what your'e passionate about will always be the way your heart wants you to go .

I put my big girl boots on and I can tell you its beginning to get harder not to stumble , fall and cry . Although all that being said , I have many positives that will help me in my future career, I have gained so much experience in the industry I have studied to be in and it really is ,despite all the long hours and hard work .what makes me happy .


MOVING DAY :my very first time moving out of my parents house and its happening next month , Following my passion has driven me to complete insanity , working about 7 days a week and waking up every morning at 5am  to be in Observatory on time for work and then leaving at 6;40pm to miss traffic , therefore the groot trek is happening next month 1st April 2015 / 21 days left and counting ! Pinelands here Roxanne and myself come.

BUT for now i just hope i become a glass bottle , this whole feeling like a plastic bag thing is not going down well with my soul , At least if I am a glass bottle I'll be useful , shiny and I can be recycled into something better..