2017

2017

More growth, lessons and everything in between.

Firstly today is the first time I visited my blog since my last post in February.

I wanted to cringe at the post that I wrote last but I've decided to keep it there because it's part of who I was and it helped & still helps the growth within myself.

I laughed at all the "relationships" I spoke about because none of that effects my emotional state of being anymore. I guess it was important at the time. 😂

2017 this far has been one of the most challenging years for me, my business and my emotional well being.

As far as business goes it's been quite slow due to unforseen health issues with my mom. I also decided to stray away from bigger events as last year as exciting, thrilling and nervewrecking as it was it caused me to have bells paulsey from all the stress which I've never fully recovered from.

My health and well being comes first and I'm not chasing any status that much that  it would affect my well being. I've learnt my lesson the hard way. 

I also stopped going to Dr's as I am trying to go the natural route and let my body heal itself where possible. And using all the home remedies my Gran gave me as a kid  which I used to laugh at.

My friend La Mesa works in a lab that produces natural medication and she's been a star at helping me on this journey and helping me where possible with my moms medication. This has been an exciting journey as it's always tempting to go back to pharmaceuticals which help you "heal" quicker but may be weakinging your immune system in the process. It's a win lose situation.

I decided to open a So called new sector to Rocket Events which included hiring of a popcorn machine, candy floss machine and giant lawn games for events.

This year could possibly be THE year of the most ups and downs, highs and lows that I've experienced In this life yet.

I don't know how but I have kept calm and taken what this year had to offer me and i've gotten through all of 2017's curve balls it's thrown me. I am much more thankful , grateful and appreciative of life and the little beauty you can find within any situation.

If anything 2017 has taught me that I can't always be in control and that sometimes I need to sit back and let life take it's course, in the end everything will work out exactly the way it's meant to be.

This thing called adulating.

To say that I haven’t blogged in a while would be an understatement.

My last blog post was regarding love and how I wouldn’t settle for anything less than something that sets your soul on fire, I also blogged about starting my own business.

Today I will tie both of those factors into my blog post as it’s been a tricky ride for me over the last year. I have become vegetarian, I have started and registered my own company and have a few failed attempts at what I thought was love or could’ve been love.

Let me start with the adulating bit the bit that is shaping me and that has given me many anxiety attacks.

I started my company in January 2016 and registered it in May 2016. I Have since created a website, started a Facebook page, worked three events in 2016 and had lots of hours of hard manual labour. I have been pushed to do better to be better and to do things that are almost impossible until the event was completed, I have had to import things from other countries to suit my client’s expectations.

Also as a grown up you need to take a lot more responsibility and there’s so much more of that when it comes to dedicated to keep your own company going. Needless to say for tax purposes I was supposed to keep all my slips throughout the year to claim for tax purposes. I being the person whose things are always everywhere I lost all of them even though I kept them together at one stage. I have to go explain myself to SARS now, as my financial year-end is February.

My dad has also asked how I feel about immigrating and my answer was yes without any blinking or hesitation. I think the reason for me being so sure is the fact that I have felt  a lack of support from my Dad, I don’t blame him I know he has a lot on his plate and I know I am a grown woman which makes it seem funny that I would need that support but I need it, I get caught in a whirl wind of emotions often very often but I hide them extremely well. My dad has been paying a lot of attention to my sister and her completing her pilot’s license, which I understand, is important but It feels like I have been put on a back burner.

It’s the little things that get to me yes I have been given the amazing opportunity to rent space from my Dad free of charge for a year but I am seeking so much more from life. I want to get my foot in the door of my industry it’s a bit hard as I am not financially able and I often wonder if this was the right decision for me or if I was to hasty on the other hand I look back and I feel proud of how far I have come at my age and doing it all by myself, but sometimes being your own support system doesn’t work and you crash because of being expected to just being able to hold your own ground because other people think you are a “strong” person.

Immigrating sounds like a way out, a way to be independent and a way to start over. A new beginning just sounds so amazing. Where I don’t need to prove anything to anyone.

I am however in two minds about it. I am not sure if I want to immigrate to escape life here, or if I am unhappy in my present state of being. I don’t want to immigrate if I am doing it purely for running away, because running away never solves the matter that’s really at hand. I’ll be taking a few days or maybe months to make my final decision but for now it’s leaning toward immigrating.

On the matters of love. Heartbreak never gets easier; you just learn how to deal with the pain. This will be the first time I open up on the matters of the heart in this way.. I have always had a positive outlook on the subject but my opinions have changed.

 I fell in love with someone completely for the first time, with his whole being, for not being ashamed of who he was, he didn’t know but he was the reason I started becoming my true self without having to explain it to anybody. He knew I liked him I just don’t think he realized how much, we drifted and reconnected and drifted and reconnected but at the end of the day my idea or image I had of him that I so highly praised for being unique, crashed in a single night.

I hurt like I have never hurt before because for the first time someone accepted me for being me and not who I pretended to be to the outside world, It’s funny how one night can change your perspective of a person. I never spoke to him for months but we get on well again and we have remained friends and I can honestly say it was a learning curb for me I have taken so much from the ups and downs and I am grateful because through this person I have learnt to be happy with myself and not to be ashamed of who I am even though I don’t fit society’s description of so called “normal”

I also saw a guy for a few months I won’t go into detail because he blogs as well and he might end up seeing this so HIII, you know who you are. He was indecisive and I should’ve known guys my age usually don’t make life decisions on girls at a young age and are still trying to figure out this whole life thing out.

Lastly right person completely wrong timing. A blast from the past. My first actual boyfriend that I introduced my family to. It’s just messy going back to the past and therefore we both decided to just leave things and see if in the future if we still feel the same way.. Well maybe not since I might be moving to another country.

My thoughts on love were happy and I made it seem to be this wonderful thing, when in fact it is rare, extremely painful, hard to find, ruled by outer appearance rather than what inside, In short it’s messy and I am not sure if I want any part of it anymore. Maybe I’ll adopt a child and maybe I’ll be happily married and laugh at this post one day, well who knows for now I want to be alone which doesn’t mean I am lonely. You can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely if you are not content with yourself.

I’ll be working on myself from now on because everyone thinks they are content, happy, “independent”(which has many different definitions). In this society we are told what we need to be and if you have said things you will be happy. I believe no one can teach you how to be content, happy, etc. unless you know who you are and what you like and don’t like and be able to stand your ground and say flip you society this is who I am whether you like it or not, I am not completely content yet because a part of me still wants to fit in but I am slowly growing into the person I am supposed to be. I am filled with mixed emotions but it’s part of the Journey.

"Loving you is easy because you are beautiful"

Its 12:55pm and because I cant sleep I have decided to blog, funny enough about love and why I continue to love whole heartedly and deeply even though I have had my heart broken so many times, one of the reasons I do so is because it’s a proven fact that Being loved is the primary need in all human beings, I feel that If I can make a difference in someone’s life being it a friend or a significant other my time spent on loving them was not wasted. Everyone needs to feel like they are needed or wanted and that they serve a purpose in someone else’s life.

I haven’t always loved wholeheartedly but I have come to the conclusion that there is more good in this world than there is bad and if I can spread a little bit of love wherever I go, hopefully I’ll be able to make a difference no matter how small in this big world by passing on kindness, generosity, selflessness and most of all a love toward other human beings (and animals hehehe)

There is a difference between like, in love & love. When you like someone you like them under certain conditions, you wouldn’t cross-oceans for them. When you are in love it’s usually just a glorification of a temporary infatuation, which usually turns into love. When you love some one there are no conditions applied.

We being human often mistake someone being there for us, for being in love with us, The truth is true & pure love will not leave you questioning it will consume every part of you like a raging fire. I think we become so needy for feeling loved we would accept any kindness toward us a symbol of love. I Have loved a few and thought that I was loved in return but I wasn’t I was just infatuated by having someone by my side that I started accepting it as “love. “When I look back now as strange as it might seem is that I’ve never found true love in a relationship with a significant other although I have definitely loved some with my whole heart.

Many are scared to love because of their pasts, I would lie if I said this did not apply to me, but I make sure that the fear is much smaller than the ability to being able to love another human. Everyone deserves a chance and there’s no use in comparing people because not a single one of us are alike in anyway.

When it comes to being in a relationship with a significant other, as much as I wish I had one I’m not ready to settle for anything less than someone who is going to set my soul on fire.

Behind the Scenes.

Ive finally decided to post something on my blog again. And this time it's about starting my own business and the background on all of it.

Many of you know I was planning to start my own company,Many thought I wouldn't actually go through with it, or many thought it's easier as I have my Dad by my side.

What I've learnt in the last couple of months is that very few will actually stand by you or ask how you are doing. I've moved away from so many people that once were very dear to my heart only because of their attitude toward me and my life.

Let me set a few things straight from the beginning starting your own company is not for the faint at heart. Im not a very anxious person but I have had two anxiety attacks from the stress of getting this business up and running. The second thing is yes my Dad has his own company but that doesn't make it any easier for me to start my own Company. So to be honest I've learnt that the only person who can make this work is myself.

I have friends who love to tell me about how its going with them at work and what they are busy with but in a way to try and talk down on me, to say that they are further in life than me, To those of you that have done this to me I want to say Thank you for showing me your loyalty toward our friendship and that I am happy for you..But I know now the people closest to you are the ones that hope you fail.
I am grateful for each and everyone of you because you motivate me, so well done!

There are a few true and real Gems in my life the ones that generally care and by reading all of this you should know which category applies to you. The friends that check up randomly and don't make every conversation about themselves. The ones that ask to go for coffee or the ones that care about my wellbeing and don't have the thought of me being a spoilt brat in their heads , these are the friends I truly cherish and appreciate.

I take my hat off to my Dad because I now know the nitty gritty that goes with starting your business, It really isn't easy and I'm glad that once again my dad will give me advice but yet leave me to do everything on my own and stand tall on my own feet.

So in case you were wondering, NO i did not run to "Daddy" for help or make it his responsibility to start my business.

If anything I have learnt who really cares and I'm grateful for those who do, i've also learnt that people want to see you do good but never better than them.

Hong Kong

Hong Kong, the city that wakes up late, where being thin is seen as beautiful, where some girls
have acceptance of themselves issues and where you can travel easily by having an octopus card.

Nicole and I have been planning to go to Hong Kong and Ireland since we have gotten back from our last overseas trip.

Nicole works as cabin crew for Commair.Ltd and therefore she can request rebate flights . We planned to leave Cape Town on the 30th November, But as it was holiday season the flight was fully booked and therefore we had to wait till the 1st of December to catch a flight out,unfortunately that flight was also overbooked therefore we did not fly the 1st of December either.

We instead went to a travel agent and booked the flight for the 2nd of December to Hong Kong and plans changed on the spur of the moment instead of going to Hong Kong & Ireland we just went to Hong Kong for 9 Days.

I will tell you a bit more about our experience and what we got up to on the other side of the world.

We landed in Hong Kong the 4th of December and we had our accommodation sorted as we have friends who now reside in Hong Kong, Bryanna & Kyall. They were so welcoming and showed us around on the first few days. Bryanna even made us detailed maps of the places to see to make it easier for us to get around when we went exploring on our own.

3rd December 2015

We arrived in Hong Kong got settled in at Bryanna & Kyall's flat ,the evening we took a ferry from Park Island to the City Cente and went for supper at a mexican restaurant called Agrave, That evening we just got settled in and were heavy jet lagged, I think Nicole and myself only went to bed at 3 in the morning because of the time difference.


4th December 2015
We had breakfast in the Village on Park Island, Eggs Benidict and Pineapple juice was the perfect way to start the day, we travelled to the women's market and tourist market where we did some shopping , we headed back to the city centre where we had a cocktail on a rooftop bar on one of the piers. The evening Bryanna had booked for us to go on a boat called the aqua luna which takes you around Hong Kong's harbour and show's off their skyline,it was the perfect time of year as all the big corporates had different christmas lights on which made the skyline stand out even more. We got dropped by the Symphony building where we watched the Symphony of lights, which displays the skylines building christmas lights,lighting up according to christmas tunes being played in the background. We had Mc Dees for supper. Before taking our ferry back to Park Island we went to a different rooftop bar and had one last drink and then called it a night.

5th December 2015

We went to a mall 10 minutes away in Tsing Yi and walked around there for a bit before having lunch  at a restaurant called so thai, so good and the name says it all it was the most amazing Thai food I have ever tasted , I PIGGED out a little bit I had prawns,ribs and homemade ice tea. The evening we met up with Bryanna & Kyall at Agrave for Kyall's rugby end of year event. It was Awesome , I met some South Africans that used to stay a stone throw away from where I am currently residing in Pinelands. We went back to the flat and Bryanns was generous enough to share her Rooibos tea white wine from South Africa , we sat up talking and snacking before heading off to bed.

6th December 2015
We headed off to Gough Street , this had to be one of my favorite places in Hong Kong ,we had lunch at a restaurant called classified and walked through the antique chinese market. The reason i loved Gough Street so much was because of the art on the walls and antiques that were sold at the market i felt in my element! The evening we went up with a tram to the Peak , where you overlook beautiful Hong Kong and we had supper at a restaurant called Bubba Shrimp , Dedicated to the movie forest Gump, They had a sign to stop the waitress that read Stop Forest, Stop and if you didn't require anything you could change the board to Run Forest Run. We all got drinking glasses from this restaurant as a keep sake.

7th December 2015

Nicole and I ventured out on our own to take a cable car up to Ngong Ping where the world famous big budha is situated , This place was absolutely breathtaking and worth the 500+ steps to get to the big budha. We spent the day there viewing the monasteries & the Budha statues.We had supper at Matsusaki, I had Spicy Beef Tepanyhaki and I'm not actually quiet sure anymore what Nicole ordered. The evening Bryanna and Kyall had barbecued pork and pineapple sausage and ribs for supper we had some wine and went to bed.

8th December 2015
 We slept!!! and had a chilled day,Bryanna and Kyall funny enough were heading to South Africa, we spent the day with them at the flat and the evening Nicole and I went to the Womans Market again just to browse around.

9th December 2015
 we headed off to a 14 story mall called Time's Square just to see how it looks as it is 14 stories high!!Nothing out of the ordinary it might be 14 stories high but the building is very narrow therefore it is not even the equivalent to Canal Walk,we didnt buy much but we walked around got some supper and caught the next train back from some random train station we had never been at before.We spent the evening realizing as we knew the next two days were going to be insanely busy.

10th December 2015
Rise and shine sunshine!! And we set off to Ocean Park. to get to ocean park it took a half an hour ferry ride to the City Centre and from the City Centre we had to take about a 45min long bus drive to get to Ocean Park. Ocean park is a theme park which is set up next to the ocean which includes many carnival and thrill seeking rides for all ages to enjoy. There were many animals to see and many rides to go on. Hong Kong is efficient with time they would say its 30 minutes to wait when in actual fact it takes 5 minutes to get on a ride. We had butter chicken for lunch and grabbed some supper on our way back to Bryanna and Kyall's flat.

11th December 2015
The last day of the trip and what better way than to have spent it at Hong Kong Disney Land. We set off bright and early to catch a train to Disney Land and spent the entire day there basically made the most of out time by going on almost every single grown up ride available and watching a 4D show.  we had waffles in the shape of mickey mouse and even bought the flashing ears to make it a real Disney Experience. I have now been to Disney Land in America, Paris and Hong Kong!! fortunate to say the least? The evening of the 11th we packed and this time around my bag weighed 2kg under the weight limit I was relieved. Off to bed we went.

12th of December
We headed to the mall for the last time ,bought some make up and some breakfast before fetching our bags at the flat before heading to the airport to catch our flight back home.

That is Hong Kong in a Nutshell.

Redecorating, going over seas and life in general.

It has been a while since I have posted on my blog. I am not going to lie and say I didn’t have the time, I am actually not going to lie at all I just didn’t post anything for no particular reason, I have just been missing. 

Well I have some interesting things to blog about and important and just random general information about what has been going on in my life the last few months. Firstly my sister and I are going to Hong Kong this coming Monday (30 Nov 15) from there we will be travelling to Ireland but to visit the places we did not get around to seeing earlier in this year. 

Secondly about three weeks ago my “Rocket’s” clutch had failed(Yes this is my car). It is the third week without my rocket and the cost to repair it is very heart breaking to say the least, but she should be on the road soon and performing better than ever. 

Thirdly My parents room in our family home burnt down about two months ago and because of this they decided to repaint, refurnish and get rid of all the things we don’t use anymore. I had my room repainted in white almond and decided to have a dark grey accent wall. I decorated the room in white,  yellow and grey, rather suprising for someone who doesn’t really like the colour yellow at all, but the yellow breaks the darkness of the grey. I took a long shot in redecorating my room in those colours but with the outcome I wouldn’t have chosen any other colours. Ill post some pictures at the end of this blog post,its just a preview before anyone criticizes.    

I have cut my own hair last week in layers!! Shock horror, Well I don’t think anyone who really knows me finds this as a shock I have always been very daring with my hair, the layers didn’t come out to horrible and I am not regretting cutting it one bit.

Can someone say HIGHHHHH TEAAAA?? Excited to dress up and spend Sunday with my Lauren at the twelve apostles sipping on tea like Kermit the frog.. 

Preview of my room..note: only a preview

The waves of life .

The Wi-Fi is down at the moment I cant do any labor online so I thought why not post a blog post, typing it offline and just posting it when the internet is active and running again, I have been set in opening my own children’s events company next year focusing mainly on children’s merriments, etc. In-between all of this I have had jobs pitched my way , one specifically being the managers’ position at the  Simply Asia Restaurant at the Paddocks Centre in Milnerton. A job numerous amount of people would be thrilled about… But I’ve done my research on the hours, the remuneration and the responsibilities and duties I had to do if I took the position, I say got pitched because that’s precisely what occurred. I had lunch at the restaurant with my best friend and I spoke to the owner and then he asked if I would Like to manage the restaurant and I chuckled as I thought he was facetious, but he told me he in all seriousness to think about it and get back to him..  Mystified between taking on this opportunity many would have died for or starting my own company, I asked my Dad for some subjective business guidance as I trust his word, he is a humorous man this was his advice to me “The thing about life is to become self sufficient as soon as you can, Your life is not controlled by others, you determine your destiny, you will make money by the effort you put behind it, you also decide where and when you want to enjoy your hard earned cash, just saying …cheers” and then added a funny part saying to look at him , he is yesterdays hero. By looking at that you can tell his really good at giving advice and won’t force you into thinking one way , but rather to open your awareness to other opportunities and yet leave the ball in your court . So I have decided to really give my future business a go ahead. Not considering any other business offers any longer,  if I don’t try I will always wonder what if.. Lets get off the business side of ME, and lets talk about what I am looking forward to , I am looking forward to many things disregarding my business ,such as my birthday …. Leaving work in December , looking forward to how much weight I would’ve lost by the end of the year , I AM ON NO KIND OF DIET , but you know I have this belief that no food will taste as good as your mummies home-produced cooked feasts when you live away from home , and I think since I eat less dense meals I eat less and thus far over the period of four months I have lost two jean sizes since I have left home . Things I notice my parents can afford and I cant.. Woolworths everything and anything.. ;( I can only afford to buy my groceries at Pick n Pay.Takeout’s whenever or randomly going to a restaurant , I can do take outs once a month and restaurant’s hardly ever anymore …living is hard when you buying almost everything for yourself  and have bills to pay so I’m gon work work work everyday … I guess that’s just the circle of life .